Once i met this guy, who treats me right, even after me fucking things up between us. 

He who pledged to never leave me no matter what. 

He who tried his best to see me smile.

He who would hold his ego back just for me.

He who would hold his temper back just to not make me even angrier.  

He who would apologize even though it wasn't his fault, just to make things better between us.

He who would run an extra mile just for me.

He who would be there whenever i pushed him away over & over again.

He who would do all those silly things just to make me smile.

He who never fails to tell me how beautiful I am despite me hating myself, hating how I look.

He who will never give up on me, us, whenever i get angry over the lamest thing.

He who believed in me.

But I've always screwed things up between us.

Because I'm lazy.

Because I'm bad tempered.

Because I'm short tempered.

Because I'm always grumpy.

Because I'm sensitive.

Because I'm selfish.

Because I'm rude.

Because I'll never be satisfied with whatever he does for me.

Because I'll blame him on the slightest mistake.

Because I'd climbed over, taking advantage of how nice he is to me.

I know I'll never find another him in the future. I've tried so hard to change to a better me, but I've failed. I tried to treat him the way he deserves to be treated, I've failed. He who's so silly, stayed with me. What a fool of him to stay by me, even after how I've failed to treat him right. 

Thank you for staying with me, thank you for those chances that you've given to me over and over again. Thank you for believing in me. I love you, X.